Monday, January 16, 2012

My YouTube Channel: a bit of everything, depending on my mood. Music is everything. But I also have some good-for-nothing videos saved there. Too much work to delete them. They should make it easier.

I studied in a nun school for all my whole and entire life. I hardly say a bad name and never ever write them. Maybe thats why I like this tune too. If I was a musician I probably would be a traditional pianist. It would be fun relax and say some bad names and how I really feel sometimes. Anyway, any displays of useless actions makes me feel bored. But music, is always good. Well, mostly.




Sunday, January 08, 2012

Welcome! And you know that I am talking about you right? You accepted me today. Nice to be a bit closer. I thought it would never happen. I do not know anything about you and this will never happen. But dont know some facts can also protect us. I will not be in Danger........

Hope you like this song. I do.




Saturday, January 07, 2012

Life is so repetitive. What changes is the way we respond to the same facts.

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Dec 31, 2011

Today here is already Dec 31, city didnt sleep and I can hear some fireworks. I live close to the beach, in Ipanema, and close to my building we have several restaurants and cool bars from where I can hear people talking right now.

And at midnight today we will be at Copacabana beach (some min far from here) to watch the fireworks show. It is a 15/20 min show where 2 million people from everywhere come every year. The tradition is wear all white (but also people wear any other color). The windows in all shops show only white clothes at this time.

At the beach some wash their feet, others jump in. The important is to celebrate and leave behind all bad that happened and look to the future where we hope to find better days to us and our beloved ones. The magic is in the air today.

Happy New Year!

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Danger

A New Year is coming. All my certainties are gone so long ago. I cannot complain. Every time I got a hit, Someone up there gives me a gift in disguise. One of them is a Danger one that I will never know anything about.

All I wanted in life in the end worked different than I planned. When we are young, we seem to be eternal and there is nothing that we cannot get it. The world is ours. While growing we start to find out that Miracles dont exist. But still sometimes there is a flame that comes back and reminds me that Im alive. So I start to see the miracle again that takes me to another world and makes me dream again. These moments are getting rare with the time but are yet so precious. In the end I still have myself. Not bad at all.

Looking for the sun. Life is beautiful. But Im starting to say goodbye.

I didnt think this before, but if you read this Merry Christmas to you my Danger unknown friend and a Very Happy New Year. We will never meet, but this is what makes life so mysteriously beautiful.

I love this song. It is so me now.
A passionate for life but impossible to be a lover.
I love life by outside.


...and the other side of the coin...........



how to forget this one........


oops............... undone

Sunday, December 25, 2011




Welcome back to my life my dear friend.
Life without you wouldnt be the same.
The best Christmas gift everrrrrrrrrr.



Thursday, December 08, 2011

Things I wrote somewhere

I love. Not anyone specific. I just love. Is this love that I have that cheers me up when everything seems to fall. · October 28 at 12:55pm

Monday, August 15, 2011

Things I wrote somewhere

- we are like 3 pirates:we dont belong to any place or any time, we travel to different seas, but when anything hurts, we are too close again :)

(a good family is the best thing one can have :) said someone)
- is the only port a pirate can have :)

- Discipline she is saying I guess has the same meaning of one of the meanings in my language too: be organized and centered trying to reach the perfection

- Japanese can be cold to show emotions but what they write have always a deep meaning. And some writings are too simple and so deep as well. They see the world with a unique vision.

- Haiku by Basho
Clouds come from time to time -
and bring to men a chance to rest
from looking at the moon.

I use to say that even a warrior needs some rest, well we all need. Clouds there for me it is that "break time" we all need to dive into ourselves without the interference of the exterior world.


- Murakami
"Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step. There's no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized bones. That's the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine.

And you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You'll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others.

And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about."
— Haruki Murakami (Kafka on the Shore)



Monday, July 25, 2011

What else can be said about life that haven't been said yet? Sun is not for everyone, the strongest and smartest gets everything, sometimes one pays most for the things one gets for nothing, and some are luckier than others. You can say that luck doesn't exist: it is a result of opportunity and preparation, right? But, what about those who have preparation, opportunities and are devoured by the mean ones? And those who have preparation and no opportunities at all? Life is not fair in human world. In the jungle, animals don't think about it ( I guess) and the laws are the same. It is weird to know that one day I will not be here anymore. I will be forgotten as anyone will anyway someday too if their names were not written in Human History.

Music is one thing that can take us away from this even from few minutes, or maybe put us in a hole worst than what we are living sometimes. Love free us from all the pain, but if it doesn't work as a relationship f.e. it also take us in a dark travel inside the dark side of our soul.

They say that ignorance is like a sky without stars, but sometimes ignorance is an armor against the unfair side of life. Knowledge make us ask, search even more for an answer. And the answer, no one has anyway.

Oh yes, I forgot to say: life is beautiful.




Friday, June 24, 2011

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." — Marilyn Monroe

Sunday, June 12, 2011

A lover's discourse

A mandarin fell in love with a courtesan. "I shall be yours," she told him, "when you have spent a hundred nights waiting for me, sitting on a stool, in my garden, beneath my window." But on the ninety-ninth night, the mandarin stood up, put his stool under his arm, and went away.

A Lover's Discourse: Fragments, Roland Barthes

Saturday, May 28, 2011

You can't light a candle to God and also to the Devil. You will lose the protection of the first till you regret of what you did, and you will be attacked with no mercy by the second one, no matter if you regret or not later. Good & evil: everyone likes loyalty.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Doesnt matter if a love stays forever in our lives or not but the good that it makes while is around. Love can free you from any pain, can make you start enjoying life again, can make you forget any insult and smile as nothing bad had happened before.


Thursday, May 05, 2011

I should say sorry to people because I am not sweet. But the fact that I am honest and fair make me think that they will like me anyway.

Monday, May 02, 2011

Life is short. Forgive, forget, love the next, yourself and be happy. After a big storm we always emerge stronger. Just believe on yourself.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Stop judging. We all are different. The chances are not the same to everyone. Can you imagine, leave your comfortable home and live under a war 24/7 and no place to go because everything is destroyed? Even in places that has no wars, many live isolated in their little worlds, or because they are sick and dont have money to pay a doctor or a medecine. Or because they are too ignorant to know what to do because they didnt have access to school. Or because they are weird.

I know what you are thinking: "World has no time for losers". Be aware: one day might be you.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Egyptian Society for Mercy to Animals - ESMA

This world have a lot of work to be done. Is really great to know that ESMA exists and are here to "protect and rescue the animals in immediate danger. ESMA is a charitable organization registered in Egypt (No. 3059/2007) that operates a shelter and adoption center."

Chief Seattle said in 1885 (in a response to the USA President Franklin Pierce - who wanted to buy the indians land) "everything is related", "we are all brothers" - he was talking about all nature, not only humans. Animals, fields, rivers, the whole universe, they are all our brothers in life.

ESMA - http://www.esmaegypt.org/

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Music express all our feelings. It is an universal language. And we chose some according to our mood. After so many beats Im like the moon now, only reflecting the light (of my family and friends).

Im down but this is transitory. It is normal we feel like that after being hit for something - even expected.

Never have any doubt about yourself. Believe in how strong you can be. In the end you will be a better person. The best way to improve yourself is facing the harder things. Easy tests dont help you in nothing.



Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Devon Hodgkins ~ goodbye ~

Im not much into thank God for anything. But Im grateful today. Yesterday I prayed to Him because I knew that another storm was coming. Today He gave me the light to open my heart to who hit me badly and did it again today. I forgive you Devon Hodgkins for all you did to me. Forgive me too. Be happy sweetheart. Everyone deserves another chance.